Where was the transition?

Childhood for me was a blast.  Growing up, I was a tomboy, playing all types of sports, games, just being an active kid.  I remember riding my bike for hours on end, all over my small town, by myself.  If I try to go anywhere by myself now, twenty questions are asked by my parents, and I'm in my twenties, but before I was 12, I had a care-free life.  Sometimes, I wonder where was the transition for my parents to start restricting me from going anywhere.  Most likely because I was entering puberty and they didn't want me to meet any BOYS.  

Since my parents were born and brought up in India, they were pretty set in their ways and traditions.  As a teenager, dating was never an option or a topic my parents ever discussed.  I guess as a teenager, it was hard for me to open up to my parents because I didn't want them to worry, but most of all, I knew they wouldn't relate to what I was going through.  If I ever mentioned a boy I like, my parents would definitely be angry at me and tell me to stop liking the boy and focus on your studies.  When i was 14 or 15, I was cleaning out my desk in my room and my dad was helping me.  He came across a picture of a boy I liked and gave me this stern look.  When I saw this look, I knew at that moment what he found.  He asked me, "Who is this boy?"  My response?  I ran all the way downstairs to the kitchen, freaking out.  While my dad was coming down the stairs, I see him tearing up the picture and throwing it in the trash. So now, you would think, this would be a good time as a father to talk to my daughter about boys.  But, no, after that incident, we went along with our business and never spoke about it.  

From that story, you now understand how strict my parents were about boys.  Throughout college, there were guys I liked, a boyfriend here and there, but I never found "the one."  My parents never asked me about guys because they wanted me to pay attention to school and my internships.  After graduation, I started my job and was focused on my career.  But of course, some of your friends start getting married.  People start realizing that I am out of college, have a job, and the obvious next step is marriage.

A month ago, my mom asked me if I had someone.  When I said no, she asked if she can help me find someone.  "NO WAY," was my answer.  Some might ask, why not have your mom help?  But, let me ask you this, where was the transition that it was okay for me to find someone?  For the longest time, my parents were totally against me dating guys, having a boyfriend and were always suspicious of guys they saw me talking to.  And now, at 24, my parents are saying, "how come you haven't found someone by now, you're supposed to be planning your wedding!"  I'm sorry, how was I supposed to know that, when you were shooing me away from guys my whole life?  

Right now, I feel as though I'm not ready for marriage.  My mom asked me why I wasn't ready for marriage, and I told her that this is my time to be selfish.  Once I'm married, it's not just me, I have to care for my husband as well as me, and I'm not ready for that.  My mom didn't say anything, but I can tell she was disappointed by my answer.  After this conversation, I have been hearing from a few of my cousins and friends, that my mom asked them if they knew any guy for me.  I shouldn't be mad, but I am.  That part of my life is private, and I don't want many people who aren't close to me, discussing my personal life.  I know for a fact, people think that me being single is so sad, especially my parents.  They think that having a man in my life, would be the best thing, which I am not arguing with.  But, at this point in my life, I am not ready for "the marriage" stage.  I am a woman who knows what she wants, is something wrong with that?  I don't think so.